Today’s prompt is “When was the last time you did something brave?”. Wow, so many things went through my mind and I would dismiss it as not brave in most people’s eyes. That made me think, what is bravery? It seems like it would be relative to each individual. The definition of bravery is courageous behavior or character. That to me is still relative. While one person might think starting a new blog is brave, another might laugh and think bungee jumping is brave. So, I will just have to make this personal and decide what is brave in my eyes. I’ve always liked the quote “Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway”~John Wayne. So when was the last time I was scared to death but did it anyway? That would be starting my new job in September.
You see I have worked many places and had many “first days” since graduating college and marrying a military man. It’s hard to keep a steady job when you’re moving all over the place and/or trying to hold the fort down while your spouse is deployed. So, with my last job that I started in 2012 I had hoped I would never have another first day. I had started this job just as the company was beginning and had helped it grow into something amazing with many friends and amazing opportunities. Then one day, half the people were laid off. Luckily I survived that lay off, but soon there was another one. Things just weren’t the same after that and it was a sad place to be. I still had no intentions of even looking for another job. In no way shape or form did I want another first day. But one weekend morning I woke up still hearing a voice in my head to look for a job. I needed to find something soon. I’ve tried really hard in my latter years to listen to my gut. So I immediately got out of bed and went straight to the computer to look for a job. I felt nauseous and like I was betraying my work “family”. I found something that intrigued me, but it was only part-time. But it was day shift (which is hard to find in my line of work) and the hours were so that I might see my family more. My husband and I decided it would be the best thing for us right now even if it meant financial strain. It would allow me to explore this blog and my new e-commerce more and also provide a stable income.
So on September 6th I started my new job. I showed up with shaking hands, a hurting stomach, and a lot of anxiety. I felt like I was starting all over. I was lonely and scared. And the job was challenging and a bit hard! But guess what? I survived the first day, and then the next, and the next. My family starting commenting that I seemed happier, less stressed than I had been in years. I think starting this job was the perfect thing for me and my family. I’m so glad I was brave enough to do something I really didn’t want to do.